Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Drive

I have been thinking about a long term indulgence. My interest in things seem to evaporate sooner than they appear. And I keep rolling in and out of existential depression. So a , sort of, permanent solution is needed for this problem.
I was just wondering what drives me to do anything that I do . A desire to feel important .
So, there is a need to fulfil this need for a longer term in greater proportions .
How do I seek to do it ?

2 comments:

the historian said...

Who is John Galt?

Padmini said...

What is a need when it is met? What is a desire when it is fulfilled? With needs and desires gone, life is but a journey full of solitude. Now that you mentioned it, I wonder what drives me to do anything that I do. And yes, it's the desire to feel important. It's so consistent, always there pushing me forward. And the moment it's gone I will know the desire has been fulfilled and the drive is lost. What next? It's like reaching a destination and not knowing where to go next. I prefer, therefore, to keep the destination as far away as I can so that it is not reached while the journey still remains. I prefer, therefore, to leave the desire, the one that drives me, unfulfilled for I know once it's fulfilled there is no drive.